June 12, 2006

Dear Alli,

So I cannot say that the past few days have been a total loss, though, I must say I am quite -- confused by males.

See,first there is Chase. He is a decent man at least,though often reminds me of a child trapped in a man's body. He has been going through some rough times. It seems that he was framed in his village for a few murders, and then when he returned just the other night, the entire village had been burned and everyone killed. Really a terrible ordeal to go through, and it really shows in his actions. Whenever he comes around, he is very depressed and refuses to think of anything else. Well, except for the curse that it seems he is under. I just wish he would take a bit of time to think that may the curse can be used as a blessing as well.

In other news, the male of the night, however, was Silent. He truly is a gentleman and very nice to me all the time, though, tonight it seems I really learned why.

He came in as usual, asking me to sit with him and just to talk a while, which is all well and good, though I really don't lead the most exciting life and therefore rarely have any news for him. But I did tell him that I was now teaching at the Magic Shop and learning more about magic in general. He finally told me some personal items about himself, such as what type of creature he is, what family he has, and any hobbies of his. Which for his answers were a half-demon, half-angel, his brother (Tear) and his brother's wife (Tamar), and just traveling around meeting others.

This was all wonderful to hear and I am so happy that he's opening up to me, and it was truly a delight that he took me out to one of his favorite thinking spots down by the ocean. We sat in the sand for a time, just listening to the waves and looking at the moon and stars. (By the way, I really have done well to still remember all those constellations I learned!) He did confess though he has been thinking a lot about how good of a mate I would be, though, I told him that I believe he is just jumping the gun a bit.

And he is a very nice man, but I just don't think I'm ready to settle down and make a commitment yet. After all the stories I heard from Alenia about men running off and just disappearing and all the drama she's been having in her life, I really do not wish to have any of it in my own. I will give him a chance though, just to see what he is like as he opens up more. I will let life lead me and just live to be happy. Only time will tell what is to be.

By My Hand,
Brianne A. Alcinoos